Wedding Bells Ring…Again!

Before anyone freaks, Honey Bear and I are still married! I will never love any other man for the rest of my life! I also told him that I would only marry once & have one wedding.  Although, as of lately, I’m starting to have the “blue’s” about how my wedding wasn’t…well all I dreamed of.

Don’t get me wrong, my wedding was beautiful! I married to the love of my life on October 25, 2014, and since then it has been amazing! I waited a little over 5 years to marry the love of my life! First off, you need to know a few things before I explain why I want a re-do!

We made our own Save The Dates with these cute paint fight pictures!

My wedding was supposed to be a fairytale/Halloween theme to it. No country theme to it at all. Don’t get me wrong, there are beautiful country themed weddings. I just didn’t want to be another country themed wedding though. I’m from Texas so there are thousands of other brides doing country themes. My wedding was beautiful though because my mom decorated it. 90% of decorations were hand crafted by my mom! The venue we had it at was a few minutes out of town and already decorated with a bunch of antiques. Perfect because I’m also a big fan of anything vintage!

My grandpa had passed September 2013 and I was still taking it hard up until the wedding. Plus with my health, I just couldn’t handle wedding planning. My mom took over planning and everything. So yes, there was some country theme to my wedding but mostly it was fairytale. She tied in my Halloween theme into the photo booth and candy booth. Butterflies represent my grandpa so she tied in butterfly decor here and there as well. My wedding was beautiful! I am so lucky to have a mom who literally burned herself with a glue gun multiple times while gluing hundreds of flowers onto wooden shaped balls!

I know a lot of people say that “the wedding is more for the guests, you won’t remember a thing, don’t spend a lot cause it’ll be over in a few minutes”, etc. Yes, this is all true but the fact is, you should at least enjoy some small moment of your wedding!

My Wedding Shoes! Jake and I love zombies so I figured I’d do something cute and funny.

Besides the decoration, I enjoyed…nothing! I didn’t even get to say my vows because the judge had a long Hallmark, sappy story and was rushing. I didn’t get my dress until the day of and it was still wrong! (David’s bridal ordered the wrong size, alterations were wrong 3 different times, didn’t order two accessories but the girl who took my order just took off. Never heard of again). My mom paid for my dress & all that came with it. Bless her heart. My dress is beautiful and I am in awe of it. Not what I wanted but still my heart melted. Made me feel like a sweetheart princess! This October I plan to take pictures in the wedding dress before I have it sent off to be put in a box to keep it for the rest of my life. If I have a baby girl, maybe she would want to wear it! Also the venue was supposedly cleaned before my wedding but it wasn’t. The bottom of my dress is black!

The photographer was rude and pushy. Also she wasn’t what everybody talked about. She came from Las Vegas and was supposed to be all that. I think she filtered my images with the basic picture editor that everyone has on their laptops. Some pictures look blue, not gray. Everyone has racoon eyes and dark pictures. My smiles were forced because I was wanting to cry due to her being so mean. She kept getting onto me for not carrying my bouquet everywhere. My guests left except for like 8 people because the whole time I was posing! I had to tell her that my blood sugar was low and I needed to take a break. She didn’t care! My mom had to shove food in my mouth and a coke because I was about to pass out!

 

My wedding cake tasted like flour and Jake’s cake was nothing but peanut butter & dry as the Underworld! The cakes also came from the best bakery in surrounding counties! So expensive and horrible! When I wrote the baker a thank you card, I put an inside joke in it. We had been joking about how the bride doesn’t get to eat the cake, it’s for the guests. So I made a joke about how she was right. I guess she didn’t get it. Got offended and called my mom. She refunded us $50…really!? Also I told her I didn’t want any of that country taffeta around the cake. Well she did it anyway. So little pieces of it were around the cake…in the frosting! I told her I wanted butterflies cascading the cake with a red, yellow and orange roses. I got sunflowers with just a few butterflies!

 

Left is my 2nd bridesmaid, Maria and to the right is my other best friend Jasmine

I was at my wedding (on time), in the dressing room and no one was there. 30 minutes go by and we are panicking because someone forgot my hair extensions and my bridesmaid’s dress won’t zip (yet again David Bridals fault).  My other bridesmaid is having to fill her dress with 2 padded bras because the top was so big (again, David Bridal’s fault). People were at my wedding 15-30 mins late. So by the time the I DO’s were done…majority of people left. Some people were blaming me for being late! Doesn’t everyone know that weddings don’t start on time? I was the bride and on time for my own wedding and not one car was in the parking lot! Don’t blame it on me!

Jake & My Baby Brother

On the morning of rehearsal, my mom, aunt and I went to decorate the venue. The day before your wedding is usually really hectic and your nervous as ever! I also should mention it takes a LOT for me to get mad. I’m really forgiving, always give someone a few chances, make excuses for people, etc, etc, etc. My mom paid to have an extra day to decorate so we didn’t have to do it the day of the wedding. So we were entitled to the key, the building, anything we wanted and to be by ourselves. My mom told the owner she wanted us to be alone so we could be calm, have fun decorating and be at peace. The vendor walks in with people wanting to see the place! There is a screaming baby! These women don’t even say hi to me. The vendor didn’t even run it by me! The man who is with them is in our way, sitting on a bench that we need to move, etc. The vendor apologized to my mom only. She knew I was mad because I wasn’t my chipper self. Honestly, why did my mom pay a $100 more so we could have the whole day to ourselves to get things done. Now I have to leave and go get a drink so that I can give you alone time with your new customers. Also, her husband was so nice & he thought my wedding was beautiful. He helped my mom hang things when I had to leave to go get dressed. He was upset with his wife for things she did. For example…we were about to pay her months in advanced for the day of Halloween for my wedding. Well that didn’t happen because she called my mom…not me. She explained that she mixed something up on the calendar and forgot about another couple who were going to be wed that day. Let me also mention that this couple were debating about that date for TWO WEEKS and hadn’t paid yet! I was ready with cash in hand the day after!  My mom even tried to offer a $100 more! It was promised to me. Her husband was so mad but honestly he let’s her deal with the business. So as much as I liked her husband…shame on him. He shouldn’t let her deal with the business if she kept missing up with my wedding or offending me. The vendor posts pics of each wedding they have at their venue. The pictures she posted of mine was actually one picture and it was blurry. It’s okay because I got some really great shots of the wedding and posted it on her page. Then I bragged about her HUSBAND…not her! TAKE THAT!

I started with 7 bridesmaids! Wedding day comes and I only have 2! I promise I wasn’t a Bridezilla! I told all 7 girls, that I wanted them to be apart of my wedding a little over a year in advanced. Multiple times, I tried to get all the girls together. Failed every time. My mom and Jake offered to pay and try to help for the dress’ and such for the girls to wear. The dress’ I picked out weren’t what I wanted but they were $99! So that is very cheap plus we offered to pay. One girl dropped out because she was having financial problems. Then throughout the course of the wedding planning, she kept going back and forth about wanting to be a bridesmaid. 2nd bridesmaid dropped out due to too much “stress”. I guess clubbing is really stressful and your part-time job is getting to shop for other people. Such a struggle, I guess! 3rd, moved due to military. 4th girl didn’t like one of my wedding guests. The last girl…well we just drifted apart. Quietly. No one understands her anymore. So my best friend and my cousin were my only brides maids left!

So this brings me to a idea…scary huh!? What if I have another wedding!? Not a big one because with the house projects & holidays coming up, it would be too expensive. I had an idea that maybe on the anniversary or week of, take vaca time and go to Austin, Tx. Our favorite place in the world (also where we went for our Honeymoon)! Maybe invite a few friends to tag along and invite a few family members. Get to finally say our vows that we worked so hard on! Maybe just wear a simple dress but yet my taste!

Jake’s table! My favorite part was the gold oil rig (Honeybear works in the oilfield).

One part, I feel guilty. I talked to my mom about it and she seemed totally fine with it. I just don’t want anyone to have hurt feelings that I am having something small and private. Or that I am having a re-do wedding. I don’t want my mom or family to feel like my wedding wasn’t special. The decor, the hard work & love that my mom put into my wedding is what matters to me. Other than that, the wedding was not worth it. I hope that maybe once I say my vows and in the moment, I will feel guilt free!

I also hope by posting this, that it will help some of you! Seriously don’t put so much money into a huge wedding. I didn’t have a huge wedding and it still wasn’t all cracked up as what you see in the movies. I knew nothing was perfect and that some people are just flakes. Some people are rude and don’t give a crap about your dreams. They want your money, darling! So, save your money for gifts for you and your spouse. Save the money and put it towards a new pool or house. Or take a lavish honeymoon! Go to the beach with the pink sand and have champagne with chocolate covered strawberries. Get naked and celebrate love with your man somewhere beautiful!

 

I just want to feel that moment, speak from my heart & feel so much love! Can I at least have that!? Dressing up is just a bonus. Others say I should wait till our 10 year anniversary to do it. Honestly, I want to be pretty and wear a pretty dress and not worry about having to plan or limit myself if I have young kids by then. Yes, I could include them but I just feel like I want it to be him and I. Then afterwards, celebrate with friends in Austin, Tx. Then have alone time to have a mini honeymoon instead of a “family vacation”. I don’t want to wait that long to say the vows that I made myself with no help!

Just thinking about all the things that went wrong, the people who flaked or how rude some people were…it just saddens me. Makes me want to cry right now. Honeybear and I have gone through so much and we deserve one special day. I want to hear him speak from his heart. I’ll have updates on our 2nd wedding in future posts! I got to get to planning! October isn’t far! Love you so much, babes ❤

 

~Love Kaleido~

 

50 Fact Challenge

Hello, good lookin’ babes & dudes! I hope your weekend was fun, safe and amazing! Just thought I’d start the Monday with a 50 fact challenge about myself. If you wish to do the same challenge, shoot me an email or tag me on Instagram. See the Contact page for more details. Just thought since I have a few new guests, that I’d refresh what you need to know about me. Once I reach 50 followers, I’ll be doing a contest give away! So, head to the Contact page and sign up pretty please! I would love to see what you guys have to say or about you guys so please tag me! You guys are really going to understand how much of a weirdo I am!

1. My middle name was given to me by my Aunt Leslie, who’s middle name is Michelle.
2. I’ve worked as a fire spotter for my dad, Hastings, The Browse Shop (western apparel) & Hot Topic. Hot Topic is the dream job but I had lots of fun also dressing rodeo queens & blue grass bands.
3. Growing up, I wanted to be a sign language teacher, counselor, cop, song writer, tattoo artist, lawyer, hair stylist, wedding dress designer, makeup artist & the military.
4. Besides, Kaleido, my other nick name is Honey Bee and my mom is called Queen Bee.  My dad is grizzly bear…hahaha. Get it!? If you see me mentioning Honey Bear, that’s Jake, aka my hubby 😉
5. 98% of my closet consists of black. I always tell myself that I will wear something other than black. Never happens.
6. I am Caucasian, German, Cherokee & Comanche! I take pride in my heritage & family history.
7. It was a joke but it became a serious option when my mom was in labor with me. My name was going to be Pearly Gates in memory of my great granny, Pearl. Pearly Gates…get it? When my mom told me in about middle school of what my name nearly was, my friends started calling me that. I liked it more than my real name Brittany. (Everyone made Britney Spears jokes or assumed I was a huge fan. I have no clue why! It’s not like our names are even spelled the same).
8. My favorite bands are Five Finger Death Punch, In This Moment, Skillet, Nothing More and Halestorm.
9. I can’t stand to spend more than $20 on myself for any reason. I’m one of those people who gift others because it brings me joy, so doing that for myself is odd.
10. I’m debating about going back to college. I have done some online photography but I am thinking about beauty academy!
11. I would love to have an animal sanctuary
12. I have been planning all my tattoos since I was 5! My parents have biker friends and I just thought they were cool uncles who had amazing art on their bodies.
13. “Turn on’s” are a unique personality, smart, a cute smile and hard-working. Tattoo’s and piercings are just a bonus 😉 I find, esp in my Honey Bear, that the drive that he has for working so hard makes me so proud. I have someone who strives for better in life, loves work and makes a difference. So much passion in life and what they do!
14. My hair has been every color possible except black, silver, peach & pastel yellow.
15. I am tempted to bring home a stray animal, esp a dog, home EVERYDAY! It’s a real struggle! No, I am not an animal hoarder!
16. I have food allergies to most fruits & vegs, few meats, eggs, some nuts, dairy and gluten!
17. You can read more about it in my blog “Jesus Freak” because I give more details but I am terrified of church. Not every church or Christians are bad but I have had a few bad experiences. I believe in God. I have many friends who are of different religions & I love them all. I am not perfect. I am not here to pass judgement. So since I haven’t found a place to call “home” for worship, I have made a small altar in my craft room. A desk with candles, bible and music.
18. I have a small scar on the bottom of my chin from falling out of a chair. My grandpa told me to not lean back and I didn’t listen.
19. I can listen to a song on repeat for about a 100 times and never get tired of it!
20. Besides my ears being pierced, I have my Monroe piercing.
21. I am related to Hoot Gibson who was a producer, director, actor & a rodeo champion. He played in a few films with John Wayne!
22. My mom is really my best friend! She has never turned her back on me. Even when I told her I had a girlfriend in my high school year. When my best friend passed away, I was diagnosed with severe depression. I wanted to die because I felt so guilty to be living. When I cried out for help, I never got help. I told her & that’s what helped me through. No counselor ever helped. No medicine. The love and support of my mom is what has helped me through these past several years of struggle, loss and pain.
23. When I feel really ugly about myself, I put on Beyonce and act a fool. Doll myself up. Dance like an idiot. Sing into my mirror. Her song Pretty Hurts has helped me the most of all.
24. Horror movies are my favorite to watch! It gives me a reason to eat chocolate and get cuddles from my husband that will protect me from any gruesome monster.
25. I have a rare muscle condition. Not much is known about it except that it causes stroke like symptoms, bad headaches & my body draws up. No cure.
26. I love to bake more than cooking and I can cook pretty darn well. Well at least Honey Bear thinks so!
27. My original life plan was to go to college, don’t get married, no kids, travel a lot & own a lot of dogs. I never had a serious relationship. I knew I wasn’t meant to be with someone and most relationships never lasted past 2 weeks. It all changed when Jake came along.
28. My soul and heart belong in Austin, Tx
29. My grandpa was my partner in crime. Seriously. We did everything together. Now that he is gone, a huge part of me is gone. I feel lost.
30. I hate odd numbers.
31. Fall is my favorite part of the year. The smells of vanilla & cinnamon coffee, the leaves turning colors, sweater weather & cuddle season.
32. Halloween is what I plan for every year! I force Jake to dress up…I know he likes it. Maybe this year I can get him to get in some tights! haha!
33. I have a Mach Mustang
34. I collect Vans, My Little Ponies, Minerals, hats & vintage anything!
35. I have a crafty craft addiction! Everything is a craft project.
36. Nyctophilia
37. I’d rather be in a shark tank than be beside a grasshopper
38. My favorite rose is a Joseph’s Coat. Range in color on each rose so each one is unique
39. Vegan
40. My favorite color is Chartreuse
41. Most favorite thing I like about myself is my eyes. You can’t tell sometimes but one eye is a shade darker than the other. My eyes are blue with a little gold in them. I guess with my mood & weather, they change color.
42. I like to write sci-fi/fantasy short stories and only my mom has read a few. She’s been trying to push me into publishing them.
43. I have a small birth mark on my back that looks like a flower
44. I am a cartoon junkie. None of those annoying, weird and sometimes creepy cartoons of the 2000’s. I like creepy but some of these cartoons disturb me nowadays. I like Jem & The Holograms, The Jetsons, The Flintstones, Scooby Doo, Popeye, Gargoyles, Captain Planet, My Little Ponies, The Smurfs, Bonkers & THUNDERCATS!!!!!!
45. I am thankful to have them but I get grossed out about feet. Your feet better be clean, smell good & cared for before asking me for a foot massage!
46. Speaking of feet, the worst date I ever had was with this guy I was crazy about. Well we went to watch a movie and he started picking at his toes & chewed off his toe nails. Then tried to kiss me! I was out of there in 3 seconds!
47. I’m very upset & down that the new movie about Jem & The Holograms is nothing close to the story line of the cartoons! So sad!
48. I collect bones. Yes, bones. Fake & real. I take skulls off of farms that had a cow or something that passed away. I clean them and paint some. I like to put them in my house or in my garden. No animals were killed for my collection.
49. Even though it is a “bad luck” to have opal as a wedding ring, that’s what I got! I love anything with Opal.
50. I’m a professional shower singer 😉 My voice is like an angel when I sing into that shower head!

Wow, that was too long of a challenge! 50 Facts you needed to know about me! Hope you guys didn’t pass out while reading that! Tell me 20-50 facts about yourself! Tag me! Remember to sign up on the Contact page. Once I reach 50 followers, I will be having a give away! Have a wonderful Monday!

~Love, Kaleido~

From Texas With Love

Hello, darlings! For those that have followed me through out the years, thank you for being so loyal! It truly touches me! All you new comers, welcome! I’m so excited for you to be here visiting my small blog! I just thought I’d write a little more about me for those who aren’t too familiar with who I am.

I’m married to my best friend, Jacob Latimer, and a stay at home mom to five rescued furbabies who are my universe! We live in a small house gifted to us by Jacob’s family as a wedding gift. One day we plan to move to the ‘middle of nowhere’ part of the country and live happily ever after.

My nickname is Kaleidoscope, which was given to me by my mother. I love to change my hair constantly and like how a kaleidoscope changes its shapes and colors, so does my hair color! My nickname is just not the inspiration for the name of my blog, it was also in memory for my grandpa. My grandpa growing up with collect many things and use most of the recycled junk in his garden. I’d play with his vintage kaleidoscopes in the backyard by the koi pond he built with his bare hands. My childhood was so beautiful when I was with him. My grandpa sadly couldn’t stay much longer, he said his last goodbye September 2013. It is so hard to move on but I know he is somewhere better. I pray that he is up there proud of me and pleased with this small dedication to him! Love you grandpa!

In my spare time, you can find me in my craft room or baking up a storm! I may or may not burn a cake from time to time! Ha! I love to recycle junk, daydream, craft, listen to music, write and anything creative. I love art of all kinds! Art is my outlet and I am inspired by all!

Thank you again for being apart of my new beginning!

~Sincerely, Kaleidoscope~